Pony tail Parades

Three sleepless nights, this isnt how it's suppose to be. But your so good at taking your time to get back to me. I will wait for you forever if you would just ask me. I thought that I could change you but you changed me. But it does'nt feel right, hold someone else's hand. Together on phone lines and living at two opposite ends. It scare's me to think, that you could, find taker's other than me. Better than me. But your head is else where, and I'm talking enough for both of us. When will you see its not so easy for me. You're careless and whispered, insulting, and bruising. And I thought you said, things were improving. These laces are united, but my feet are still walking away. I never thought that you could say these words. Don't say we can still be friends. Erase my name from this page. How can I take all these days and throw them away . What is inside of me? What have I done? Is this the only way that you will notice me? As I sit here waiting for you. I stay up nights till stars leave the sky knowing what my dream's can take away. Why cant you look at me can you only see? This night is done. 

The vulgarity of the lies drip with the condescending tones as the smoke pours out his mouth. I wonder if thats what I was really like. Blood splattered thoughts of death and foulness ridged doubled sided tounge cutting deeper than any sword or knife in the history of the world. Even the thoughts of burning bridges watching everyone on the other side walk away without a thought of putting it out. More or less them ever really caring about it other than it lighting there path to "salvation".